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about me
name: Sayed Hamzah Bin Sayed Ali Alhabshe age: 18 loves: Allah, My family, and my closest friends in C200, as well as my TP aikido family! hates:backstabbers, liars, dumpers!!! links DINA ALINA KAK DIYANA FIZA [ACCION] Nuruddin[C200] Nicole TP T&F GITA [Intro to Japanese Classmate] TP Aikido Siau Tian Hime-sama KRIS TP AIKIDO NAFEES WEN QIANG Aini Leslie SP Aikido Jasmine Karen Haikel Sebastian NCC RSM NCC Sabiruna Rasyiqah FARHANA PRSS speak urr mind
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guess i've been dumb lately huh.. thought it was going to be a smooth sail for me.. looks like it was otherwise.. i can't take care of my gerl.. i can't take care of my friends.. i can't take care of my loved ones.. how the hell can i take care of myself?? huh? no one knows what's going through my mind now.. you may think,i'm just a person, who does well in studies and CCA.. so WHAT THE HELL does studies and CCA have to do in life? its just part of my job.. and my emotions.. they're getting haywire.. mixed of anger,sadness,confusion.. i guess my life is more complicated now.. is it better? to be the Hamzah that i was before? or the Hamzah that i am now? i'm confused.. for Rin, i know for me to say the phrase "I'm sorry" is useless to you.. so what if i have my gerl and my other adek angkat? that doesn't mean i don't care about you.. i do.. i always do.. i miss hearing your voice.. i miss you a lot.. i would want to see you. but we just don't know when.. i've been dumb enough to ignore you.. didn't SMS you. didn't call you.. didn't even contact you.. i've been guilty.. its hard for me to tell you,what's going through my mind now... but whatever it is,I'm sorry.. For Adeq Fiza, i'm sry i've been reacting differently.. so stupid of me.. i don't know.. what to do.. den when you were unhappy abt NCC, i was uncomfortable taking thatUSM post.. until now i still feel that way.. then what's even worse is that crisis abt me and Faz... i just don't want you to suffer.. that's all... For Syg Faz, if you're reading this.. i'm sry abt all the wrongdoings i have done to you.. maybe i just don't understand you well enough.. but i'll never give up on our relationship.. no matter what happens.. i just need you by my side... and support me...
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