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about me
name: Sayed Hamzah Bin Sayed Ali Alhabshe age: 18 loves: Allah, My family, and my closest friends in C200, as well as my TP aikido family! hates:backstabbers, liars, dumpers!!! links DINA ALINA KAK DIYANA FIZA [ACCION] Nuruddin[C200] Nicole TP T&F GITA [Intro to Japanese Classmate] TP Aikido Siau Tian Hime-sama KRIS TP AIKIDO NAFEES WEN QIANG Aini Leslie SP Aikido Jasmine Karen Haikel Sebastian NCC RSM NCC Sabiruna Rasyiqah FARHANA PRSS speak urr mind
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Hey guys. Not gonna blog much about what happened this week. Just that on Thursday, the TP Aikido freshies came in. they are actually not bad after all. i see them to have lots of potential. Today was also the same thing, some of the freshies came down. they do learn quick. yeah. That's what i can blog about my events right now. As for life, well let's just say that i guess it's getting better. but, i just feel weird. even though i'm academically-well, i still feel weird. i know it has been two months. i got over her already. i cut off all ties with her so that she will forget me. besides, she already regard me as some stranger. the way she gave me that look when she saw me during the TP CCA Recruitment Drive 2009. and about that crush that i had posted recently, i changed my mind. because i don't think i even have a slight chance. found out that she's interested in older men. oh what the hell. being friends with her is good enough. a friend of mine told me not to stop giving up on love.. but from the way i see it, i don't think loving someone out of my family and relative circle isn't possible anymore.. now, i have no one to really confide in all my problems. it's true that you can tell your friends and family about it. but then, there will be this special someone, whom you have given your love to, to lend you a shoulder to cry on, to hug you when you need one, to give you the strength to go on when you feel like giving up... right now, i just feel that after i enjoyed being with the light, i fall into this dark pit. and i can't come out.. And i wait.. and wait. for a hand to reach out and pick me out of the darkness... that's what i'm feeling right now..
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